just remember, remember how it feels how painful it is and then think of her. Think of what she has to put up with and all the devastatingly suffocating feelings that drive her to the edge. Just remember all those time you want to end it with anything and then you will see. Thinks of those times you lay naked on your floor crying into the carpet with a knife not two feet away from your itching hand. Or when you know that there are all those pills right above your head and if you swallow them slow enough your body might not reject them. Think of the time you were in the tub with your head below the surface of the water thinking dreadful thoughts as your body convulsed with the need to breath.You had every intention to pass out so that your body would drown as you were unconscious.