How will I ever get over her. I have so many days where I feel strong and whole and then all the sudden I am lost. I am drowning in all the unsaid. I want to beg and plead to get her back. I want to be loved. I love her still and it is killing me. Every person I have sex with I wish that it was her. I cant fuck my way to recovery. I feel like shit. I know why she left me and I wish oh god I wish I could change it. I wish I could take it all back. I hate loving her. I hate it to the very core of me. I am drowning in this.

How do I move on?

How do I forget the last three years of my life?

How I wish I could just forget.

Did she not realize when she said those words that she killed me? I thought she loved me.

Oh god.

Oh god.

Why?


Nena