I am not sure that Christmas in Ohio is going to happen for me. I mean I don't really have the money for it. A. said that she would help but I don't know. I am kind of half hoping that I don't go because that would give me a greater opportunity to spend time with M.D. I really hope that her mom is more keen on the idea of having me over but I know of have a feeling that she may not be. I mean its M.D's first holiday back and I am sure that her mom misses her terribly.
several days later....
I feel so tired. I very fucking tired of all the shit I have to put up with. I am trying my best to stay out of all the crap my house seems to want to put me through but I just want to...I don't even know what I am saying. Yeah right, I can't tear them to pieces. Educated does not count for shit in this place. You have be black or act black and that is just a fact. If your not loud, mean, and hypocritical you don't belong, and let me tell you, I don't belong.
It's only nine more months of putting up with this crap, and then I get to leave.
M.D is my only savior from the insanity that prevails my day to day life but as soon as I want talk to her the stupid occupants of my house protest and give me dirty looks. I hate them.
Nena
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You and me both, baby. Someday they'll all end up six feet under, a thought i cherish. (Morbid thoughts, me? Never.)
On that day, bebe, i get to drive you away. And rhyme left and right. xP
I love you.
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