Fucken A

What do I say?

You know I am just so tired of P.

I am so tired of all her crap. Its like she is my girlfriend but I don't get any benefits from the relationship. There are no great laughs or amazing times where you just wish they lasted forever it is only her shit, her drama. I am so tired of that drama in my life.

Its like she is always looking for some reason to be pissed at me and as soon as she thinks she has a reason she lets it loose like some terrible demon. I have rode the rides with her all day and the last ride of the day I don't want to go because I am not feeling well. I am sorry if just after eating I don't feel like getting flipped and turned and tosses in the air like some demented rag doll and I would rather sit the ride out. I tell her I don't want to ride it and she gets pissed and storms off like I just called her a bitch and she should go burn in hell or something. I am confused as hell and I walk out of the restaurant yelling after her. "What the hell is wrong?" She screams back that since I don't want to ride the damn ride with her that she will just go and do it by herself. I said that I was at least going to walk with her and she gives me this fucken look like I just dragged blades through her chest and she couldn't believe I did it. I was like "I am not that much of a bitch so stop assuming things." we start walking and she is still walking ten feet behind me and I wait for her. She is looking like I killed her pet and now I want to kill her. I look at her sideways and ask whats wrong and she shakes her head and says nothing in that stupid hurt little kid voice. I am like "you know what I am not even going to ask because I always have to play twenty fucking questions with you" and that is when she walks off.

Fuck and I mean fuck I am so fucking tired of her shit. You want to know what the worst part is?

I am willing to forgive her if only she would say she was sorry without me being the first one to talk to her. I am tired of being the only one to put effort into this relationship. I am not going to fucken save it. Not this time. I give up.

Arrggg....I just want to scream!!!!!!!


Nena