Frustrated

Is it Friday yet?

God I miss her so much.

I am so frustrated of late and I really don't know why. I mean I have been so quick to anger, so easily annoyed. I keep thinking about what J.B said and what A. keeps telling me and I want desperately to tell them to stop. To just stop and let it be. For once I am not picking at my relationship and quite frankly I don't need others do so for me. I am not thinking about the end of my relationship. Really who the hell thinks about the end of a relationship when it is so new?

"Well, at least you guys are going to be good friends..."

No, damn it we aren't just going to be good friends!!!!! I refuse to let it be like that. I am not giving up on this relationship simply because we have an obstacle to overcome. I love her and I can and will overcome my senior year.

I just want to scream, because it seems like no one understands and I know if I tell them that, that they are just going to give me the stupid, blind teenager in love bullshit talk that I just don't need.

I love her why is that so hard to understand?

Why is it just so bloody hard to let things be. The only person right now who is doing that and not telling me that this relationship is going to fail is my dad. Yeah because that's what every person wants to hear.

"Your relationship is not going to last, your just in high school, you have the rest of your life..."

Well can't the same be said for anyone else...

"well your only twenty-five, so young, how do you know that this is the person you want to settle down with I mean the average person lives to be about eighty you still have about sixty more years to live..."

Arrgg....

Please stop telling me that this is going to end and fail. For once can't someone please just tell me that I can do it? That they believe in me and that oh I don't know they support me?


Nena


SEVERAL HOURS LATER

I need an escape.

Nena