Revlieved to a certain extent

I am finally breathing steady once more. Ohio is working out after all!!!! K.V.B is the nicest person... she helped me pay for the ticket and I promised to pay her back.The ticket is bought and there is no turning back now!!!!

This was one of my main stresses and now that it is pretty much taken care of I am tear free. Yesterday was terrible, my s.w made me so so mad. I had told her three weeks ago that I had the money to purchase the plane ticket and she does not get back to me untill friday to tell me that it is ok to buy the damn thing. Well by this point the ticket that was in my reach turns out to be 500-600 dollars, this is about double the amout out my reach. I was freaking out and pretty much screaming at her untill I realized that she is like wallpaper and I should just calm down.

A. made me feel so much better she calmed me down and even made me laugh. She was actually the last person I wanted to dump on about the plane ticket becausee she is already stressing about work and her personal life that adding me to the mix would just make things harder then they need to be. I called my friend and ended up getting the machine then I called my dad and I got his machine twice I even called my mother I was so in need but I did not expect much from her I got her machine too. I told myself that I would not call her, but some how I ended up on the phone with her for about two hours. I think I might have bored her to death then anything. I am much better then yesterday.

Now I have all these summer plans and I am worried that there is not enough of me to do it all. I am sitting her procrastinating by writting an entry instead of finishing my much too long to do list and going to bed. I really wanted to write an entry but have not had the time nor peace of mind to do so in a while.

My birthday was not all that bad. I had a decent time, I did not get to climb that mountain but I will eventually. Hmm.. maybe I will add that to my summer list.

I have a really big job this summer at a girl scouts camp and I am looking foward to working there even though I dont get to be a counsler.I am a kitchen staff but that is good enough for now if I like it I will come back when I am eighteen and be a counsler. The funny thing is, is that when I was in seventh grade I promised myself that I would go to camp (any camp) and become a camp counseler. I had missed out on sixth grade camp so I thought that I could always go and be a counseler and now I am even closer to doing that then I was then. Weird how somethings that you miss out in as a kid you get to do as an adult (although I am not an adult I am pretty damn close...sort of....well, o.k maybe I am a little far off)


here goes to kicking off my summer.

Nena