Uncertainty

I have no idea how I am going to afford to move. I just started my new job and I am not making enough to save on top of my current rent. I don't know what to do. T.A is in So-cal dealing with her mothers health issues and I am here alone unsure if she even coming back. What about when our lease is up next month? Is she just going to say okay, see you later? If she does , I am SOL. K. says she wont be ready to move in together for at least a year. I don't know how I am going to find a new roommate. Should I even post for one? I wont be able to find one before the lease is up and even then I don't have a room to show since T.A's stuff is locked away and we both know she wont be coming back for that stuff anytime soon. Does that mean she will pay the increased rent? I have no idea and its driving me crazy! I finally have a full time job again and I now I might be loosing my housing? It feels like I never have the opportunity to get on my feet. Even with my tax return (if I even get a return this year...) I don't think I will have money for first months rent plus deposit plus pet deposit. As much as I love Ollie, I find myself wishing I had just stuck through the terrible loneliness of T.H and just moved out without ever having gotten a pet. Having him has made life much harder....I don't want to complain because I love him but sometimes I wish I didn't have the responsibility of being a dog owner. I feel so much guilt for typing that. He is currently curled at my side passed out....I do love him and I am grateful to have his love in my life despite the added stress. this uncertainty is driving me up the wall. Ugh I should really go to bed I have work in the a.m.

Nena