I can feel the tides stirring, the first leaf lifting on the coming wind, it gathers in all the quiet places and fills me with an anxious giddiness. Each day that passes I know that this year is going to be something monumental in my life. Maybe my life has always been building to this moment, maybe I have always known something big was going to happen or maybe I want change so badly that I am finally putting into action all the fear and doubt instead of sitting with it and letting it fester in stagnant corners of my life. Whatever the reason fortune has been placed before me, served with two sour, yet fragrant, orange slices, glittering gems to suck and savor as I unwrap the oracles gift. This is the kind of cookie I eat whole, swallowing it's promised words and hoping that as it slides down my throat and coats my belly with its hope, that somehow, its sweetened vision will become a part of me and spread out before me, like a clear path to lead me through this year, that I feel so strongly is mine. I focus on the lightness that I feel looking upon the word "change". I focus on how already this year is so drastically different than last. How so many positive things have come into my life and how I fear being greedy in wanting more but there it is. Like birthday wishes, I whisper them in my heart, echoing all this building desire and keep them bound to me until I know they are true.All I know is this love that has wrapped itself about me and curled into my side has left tiny marks upon my skin that when connected, promise a future, a future that I am reaching for with shaking hands, aching arms, and fierce determination.
This will be my year.
I just know it.
Nena
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