Romance in Dreamland

A man is trying to get me to sign a paper and I know that I don't have to so I am giving him a hard time. He keeps saying that I signed a contract that says I have to sign this paper so I ask where in the contract does it say that. He cant seem to find the contract so he eventually becomes so frustrated that he leaves me alone.

I am hungry after all this arguing so I head over to the table to eat. I ask if Natalie is working and someone responds that ever since she had the baby she has faked sick so that she wont have to come back to work. Several of the girls are seated at the table. I find that I am eating something that doesn't belong to me and I am hoping no one will say anything.

I look up across the table to find Mrs.P looking at me and I really want to ask her for Rens number or email address so that I can awkwardly say thank you and that ,maybe we should hang out or something. I ask Mrs.P if we can go outside so that I can talk to her personally. She agrees and we get up to freeze in the cooling night air. Outside against the wall I say that I have something that may not be appropriate to ask but I am going to ask it anyway.

I ask if I could have Ren's email address and she laughs and agrees. But then a haunted look fills her eyes as she thinks on Ren and her situation. She says "You know that we are not together anymore. " I kind of just look at her. "She has a dangerous thing for women with short curly hair" she says.

My heart begins to pound.

I try to think back on my past encounters with Ren and see if there was anything that might have pointed towards romantic feelings. I can find nothing.

Mrs.P looks out at the night and says "she found some fifty pound twig when things between us got quiet and strained.... I left her for it."

I don't know what to say but for some reason my heart is beating even faster.

"She showed up at my graduation," I start, "I didn't send her an invitation but she came and she gave me flowers."

She looks a little pale at this news.

"I don't know why I just said that" I say.

She looks at me with the strangest expression on her face and I wonder whether or not she is going to hit me. She pushes herself off the wall and and comes in kissing distance, I want to back away but I don't."Will you come with me?", I hesitate. I cant seem to comprehend what she is talking about so I ask her to explain.

"Will you be with me?",

"Like be with you, Be with you?"

I feel a little queasy.

She looks out at the night and doesn't answer my question. I ask it again but again I am ignored. My heart is trying to escape its cage as I think that if I go with her that maybe she will take me to Ren.

I want desperately to see her so that I can know, so that I can see it for myself.

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Nena