Heartache Mixed With Old Words And Lonliness

My dear, dear Nena! You can always ramble on to me so long as I can ramble on to you. We are a great friendship pair I tell you! When I see you and read your words, I am reminded of me at 15. You are so much like me. I know you feel lost right now, but you WILL figure it out. Just be patient. Learn about yourself. Read endlessly! And read non-fiction. That is how I started to figure out who I am and what is and is not important to me. I know residential homes totally suck! And I have little advice on how to deal with that other than avoid the drama and lose yourself in something good like your education. That is why I am where I am today. When I was at residential homes, I just stuck my head in a book so I didn't have to deal with the stupid staff and the insane kids. I know I was one of those crazy kids, but I never acted out. I only felt crazy because of my depression. I know what that feels like, but the tears will eventually stop.. I promise. And one day I am going to drag you out to Ohio just so I can wipe away your tears. I have no great advice or words of wisdom for you tonight. I am sorry. But what I can say to you is that I absolutely empathize with you. I was in your shoes and not too long ago.You are such a great young womyn, I know you will turn out not just fine, but you will be great one day. Nena, you are absolutely going to do great things in this world. I feel it. You have a heart in a way that is so rare. I saw it in your eyes. You are going to do great things one day. Remember that and you will get through these hard times. I too know that pit that depression drives us to and I was there, very deep. It is so nice to have that stability now. One day, my dear Nena you will have this stability too. It is worth the wait, my friend! It truly is!

Honestly the past few years have been great and each day seems to be better than the last. Sometime I even think things can't get any better, but the next day they do and I think that day that things can't get any better…but they do.Things do get better. (but when?)I am thinking about you. You take care of yourself. And keep writing.
Write soon.

Love always,

A.


I wish someone would tell me this once more.

I miss you A.

I miss you K.V.B.D

I don't want to miss someone else too... please someone tell me that this is going to be o.k. That even though we will be far apart it will all be o.k.

Please....

When do things get better?

Nena