I don't know how to react to what Alex told me. She said that she could not respect my relationship with M.D. She then began to say that she loved me and I am her role model but this she could not accept or respect. Why does that hurt more then what A. said to me yesterday?
I thought she was fine with it but then out of the blue she tells me that she doesn’t respect it. I thought that maybe just maybe she could accept me, all of me because never, not once had I not accepted anything about her. I have been there for every heart ache, every boy crash, everything major and helped her and loved her through it all but this one thing has shoved a knife through my heart causing me more pain then if she were to tell me she hated me and no longer wanted to speak to me
I am supposed to see her this weekend and I forgot about it until she called me today. I don't know if I can be in her company knowing that she can't respect or accept one of the most important people in my life. Is this going to drive us apart?
If Alex can’t accept me, then I have no business being in her life. I can’t be a part of her life because she will hate herself for it. In her eyes she loves the devil and that devil is me. I am not a Christen, I am a lesbian, and I am dating a Wiccan. I can not have her beat herself up over me because of her strong religious beliefs. Maybe it is best that I do not get her in trouble with her family and with her god.
If she knew A.'s sexual orientation could she accept my love for her?
Does she look at me differently now that she knows my sexual orientation?
Why is it so bloody important?
I love a female. Why does that affect/matter to Alex?
I feel as though I just had an important part of me ripped out. I love Alex why can't she accept me?
I feel hurt and crushed that my best friend can not love me in return.
Why does it hurt so bad?
Nena
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