I want to tell my dad about MD and I but every time that I think to tell him it gets caught in my throat and I can't say it. I want to tell him but I know that if I tell him he will tell Lea and I don't want Lea to know. Lea is a vile woman who does not deserve to know the intimate details of my life let alone any details of my life. I am trying to sever connection with her but at the same time maintaining contact with my dad. This is proving much harder then it needs to be.
I talk to my dad about MD but I have only said that we were friends. I have never lied to my dad. I hope this does not count as a lie. I am still telling the truth just not all of it. I really do mean it when I say I have never lied to him, I have never had the need nor the want to do so. Even when I knew that he would be disappointed in me for a misdeed I still told him the truth.
This is eating at me. I believe that he has a right to know but I can't tell him.
Arrgg.....
I want but can't for dislike of another.
Why must I make things so complicated?
Nena
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