I can’t believe that in just 9 weeks I will be meeting my daughter! I feel both overwhelmed and immensely excited at this knowledge. I lost hope along the way of ever having a baby. I thought for sure I was not meant to be a mom since all signs were pointing that I would be childless. It’s was a cruel fate that I grieved and tried my best to ignore. To have grieved the very idea of never having the opportunity to love in that way and to now be here on the heels of her birth is like falling into another universe.
Meeting and falling in love with Kris, unlearning so many bad habits, facing my trauma all these steps have lead me here on the cusp of motherhood. I feel ready. I feel ready to love her so completely. I can’t wait to see what makes her smile, how she handles adversity, see this little soul bloom into a beautiful human. There are so many unbalanced people out there, I want to add to the world’s pool of good.
9 weeks!
I can’t wait to hold her in my arms and gaze into her tiny face, feel the curl of her perfect little hands around my finger!
I love her so much already!
Nena
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