I don't even know what to say. I feel so overwhelmed one minuet and then the next I am fine, thinking of everything in perspective. I feel like I can't breathe but then if I don't think about it is as if none of its happening. I know that I need to take all of this one day at a time but I feel so trapped and so hopeless sometimes. I don't even want to consider going to a two year but everyone keeps telling me that there is noting wrong with it. There is something wrong with it. I don't want it that is what's wrong. I am finally getting a chance at my own damn happiness and I am not going to deprive myself of the one ting I have wanted just because its proving to be a little harder then I had anticipated. I am not one to give up so easily. I just wish more people believed in my success then my failure. Everyone is bombarding me with what ifs and back up plans but no one say anything about the accomplishments and potential successes. It seem as though my life is being centered around my potential failure. I hate that because when you look at life that way all you see are possible ways you can fail. I am tired of thinking how I might fail. I don't even want to leave room for failure. I am smart person I know that there are possibilities that plans might not work out and that I have to have prepare as best as possible in case things don't go my way. I don't need fifty million people telling me that my potential failure is greater then my potential success.
Uggg.
I just want this school year to be over with.
Nena
1 comment:
Man, are they still saying stuff like that? The fact that you're going hasn't deterred them? -_-* Throw your optimism in the face of their pessimistic tendencies, bebe.
I love you.
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