Laughing Through Sadness And Crying Through Smiles

There is something wrong with me that I cant quit place. It has been so ADD today. I mean I feel like I cant really concentrate on much of anything but at the same time my emotions have been haywire. I was sad, happy and worried all at the same time while I was talking to M.D earlier today and while I laughed I wanted to cry and be held. Its odd.

I am really worried about not getting accepted into college and at the same time I dont want to be accepted because hten that will mean that I can take the easy way out of things and run off to Canada to be with her. Nothing would hold me here.

Nothing.

Nena