Pending Doom Held Off For Cardboard Box Love

I am super excited. Last night my SW drove me over to M.D's house and now I get to spend four nights with her instead of three.

I wonder what was wrong with me last night I felt as though I was five years old again and nothing was right. That at any point my life was going to fall apart and I was going to be miserable and lonely again. Maybe its the pending doom of my senior year and the emptiness that will follow as I take my first steps into the adult world.Or maybe it was the scare of the beginning of this summer. This fear that I am going to loose the ones closest to me. Who knows, but whatever it was I felt like crying and I was trying to hide it but of course as always M.D picks up on it as she does with any slight change in my mood.

This morning was great waking up next to her (minus the bad dream).

Now we are off to fulfill my dream of going to an amusement park with the person I am in love with. I feel ridiculously excited about this. I mean when I was younger I would always see lovers walking around the fair or the beach hand in hand and I always wished that that was me and someone else but I just seemed doomed to be alone forever until I threw boxes at this really pretty girl.


Life is good.

Nena