Rambling, Frostbite and Pepper

Strangely enough I was extremely tired today. I know that I went to bed around two but I mean I got about five hours of sleep that is pretty decent, I should not have been as tired as I was. (quick note: never rub your eye after dealing with pepper. I hurts like a bitch!!!!) I woke up feeling as though I had been crying last night which I wasn't. Hmmm...I don't know.


Intense conversation last night. I told her things that I have wanted to tell her for a while but just could never bring myself to say them for fear of driving her away. I am glad that I did.


I have actually been thinking on one aspect of that conversation almost all day and if I ever work up to asking maybe just maybe we could.

I am not sure if I would be able to, maybe.

But then that would feel premeditated, then again I really don't know much about things like that.


Sheesh it is freezing in here.

Goose bumps!!!!! eek!!!!

I am not tired anymore considering I have slept for at least three more hours. I went in my room with the intention of reading but failed and when I woke it was eight thirty. I am glad I did wake though, all I remember is that I was not having pleasant dreams. It is super intense when you wake up and your heart is pounding like you just ran ten miles and it is trying to escape by digging a hole in your chest. I was breathing hard and sweating but I don't know what the hell I dreamt. I felt terrified when I woke up, sheer terror coursing through my veins until I looked around and calmed my body enough to let it realize that whatever the hell it was frightened of did not exists.

I kind of felt like I was two people in one body. My body freaking out like some scared trapped thing and my mind calm and serene the only thought is wondering why my body was reacting the way it did.

Really odd.

(god the pepper again!!!)


Well I am freezing my ass off sitting here typing till my fingers get frostbite and fall off (not really) so I am going to go.

Nena