Humph...

Arrg....I cant stop thinking about her!!!!! It is becoming exhausting. I cant sleep because I dream about her and so I stay awake but I still think about her, I cant concentrate during the day because she is always on my mind. There is something I want to tell her but when I think about telling her my throat closes up and I develop a slight case of lethargia. I am scared that it will make her feel uncomfortable. I also don't want to tell her over the phone....I want her to see my eyes me face so she knows that it is not just something I am throwing around. I want her to know that I truly mean it. Oh it is so infuriating that I am so scared to say it to her. I just don't want to push her into something that she does not want. I want her to be o.k with everything and that is why I am so timid. All I can do is sigh. My heart is caught in my throat as I sign into my email wondering if I got a letter from her, my hands shake as I am on the phone with her but when I am near her this overwhelming sense of calm comes over me and I know that everything is o.k. She is so drugging, her kiss her touch can send all thoughts from my mind and all I can concentrate on is her. The sound of her voice is intoxicating, my eyes blur and my head spins. I love her. I love her and I cant tell her because I don't want to push her too fast. How can I feel so strongly for her and we have only been dating for about a month or two? It is so unbearably hard not to stare into her beautiful blue eyes and kiss her and tell her that I love her.

~sigh~

Nena