Sorry for not writing in a while, I would say I have been busy but I really haven't been. I came out of my hole today and went out on the town with no specific destination. We ended up at Walt-mart (forgive me please) and I couldn't bring myself to step into the store, it was as if it is now forbidden. Ever since A. told me about it I cant go in there anymore without feeling as though I am betraying myself. Instead I slept in the car as I waited for the rest of my house to do their shopping. It felt good to stand by my own beliefs. Even if it was a silent stand LOL. This weekend has been slow which is really nice and I don't have school on Monday either, oh the joy!!!!
oh I am so excited A. Called me and told me that she might be coming out here, it gives me even more of a reason to wake up every day. I really do hope she comes!!!
I called her mom last night it was so perfect it fit her so well. It came to me so naturally that I just had to say it, she told me that it was alright and then she called me her child, I went to bed so happy!!!! I have a mom!!!! A loving caring, beautiful mother!!!!! Gosh just thinking about it makes me happy again!!!!
so this is what it feels like to be loved?
I am just so happy I could cry!!
oh I pray that she can come out here the only terrible part about her coming is that she will eventually have to leave :(
feeling as though the world just become forty-million times better
nena
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